Ashley Cain supported online as vile trolls leave him 'suicidal' following daughter Azaylia's death

REALITY star Ashley Cain has been supported online after revealing his heartbreaking mental health battle following the death of his baby daughter Azaylia.

The grieving dad shared a statement on Instagram in which he defended a recent night out with friends that had prompted shocking criticism from mean keyboard warriors.

The Ex On The Beach star had attended the latest Strictly Come Dancing tour show with his brother Matty on Saturday night and was seen smiling and dancing in videos.

Sharing photos from the evening, Ashley, 31, said the event had been a much needed break from the reality of his daily struggles after a horrendous year.

He penned: "Maybe I just wanted to try and enjoy myself for one evening and replace the suicidal thoughts I have everyday since my daughter passed away in my arms with an attempted happy couple of hours."

The TV star revealed he had shielded his pain in order to stay strong for loved ones including girlfriend and Azaylia's mum Safiyya Vorajee.

"I feel that the stronger I am, the more people judge, the more people attack and the more they try and bring me down," he continued.

"You couldn’t believe what trolling, harassment and bribery people try to use against me on a daily basis. What horrendous lengths people go to in regards to personal attacks on my daughter, myself and everyone close to me."

In an incredibly honest admission, Ashley added: "Sometimes I feel like the only way these people who don’t even know me will stop, is if I kill myself.

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"They don’t understand the pain I am going through and the consequences their actions have on everyone around me. I am a person with a past who is trying to be better. As I write this I remain calm as I am not afraid of death, neither will my path be altered because of hate.

"I am however hurt that people want to go to all lengths of bitterness and hatred, speculation and variations of lies to discredit a person trying to smile, trying to be better, trying to keep his daughters name alive and trying to make a difference for childhood cancer, mental health and the warriors who are fighting it.

"Maybe one day people will understand, maybe they won’t. Maybe by the time they do, it will be too late.

"Maybe they will read this and think more wisely how to spend their time. Maybe they will understand now why I have to go to the extreme lengths I do, why it is so important to me and for those around me why I have to."

His post sparked hundreds of comments from angry supporters, with Safiyya writing: "You shouldn’t have to explain yourself to anyone!

"What we have gone through is the worst pain anyone could ever experience!Shame on anyone that try’s to bring hate & negativity! Be proud 🥲 Stand strong and be yourself! Btw outfit is 🔥 👏🧡"

Mental health campaigner and TV presenter Fearne Cotton wrote: "You and Safiyya have generously let us all into your world and shared your story to help so many others.

"You have built a beautiful community of people who truly care. Only take note of those. They are the only comments that count. 🙏🏼🧡"

Whilst Actress and author Giovanna Fletcher penned: "So many have nothing but love and respect for you. We can never control the minds of others and trying to reason with those few voices is often a waste of our energy – you have brilliant energy that you are doing so much good with. SO MUCH LOVE is swirling around because of you! 🧡 xx"

Fellow reality TV star Calum Best also reached out and said: "Brother here always !

"F**k the people that don’t know , you know urself , you shouldn’t have to deal with any outside opinions of what u do in life let alone what u do to help others , it’s a serious weight to carry what ur going through and anybody who questions ur motives, reasoning , spendings or whatever it may be is a low form of human."

And Strictly star Maisie Smith's mother Julia thanked Ashley for supporting her daughter at the show, writing: "Thank you SO MUCH for coming to support my daughter yesterday ❤️ it was an absolute pleasure to meet you, your brother & your friends. You must come & see us in Leigh soon xxx"

This is not the first time Ashley has spoken out on the abuse his family has faced since Azaylia's death.

Ashley has been fundraising to help other families whose children have cancer after the death of Azaylia aged eight months last April.

She had been diagnosed with acute myeloid leukaemia when she was eight weeks-old.

Sadly, he was accused of spending his late daughter's fundraising money on supercars and designer clothes and hit back in furious post last July.

In an exclusive interview with The Sun last month Ashley and Safiyya – who have been taking part in different challenges to raise cash and help children – said the money has helped buy life-saving equipment.

Safiyya told The Sun last month: “The Azaylia Foundation has bought equipment which helps research into bloods and can process ten children an hour.

"Previously in the lab they could only do two children a day. The community achieved this. “They are already helping so much, it is phenomenal.

“Azaylia is such an inspiration and it is such a heart-warming feeling knowing how much she is helping people.”

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